The single life is good

I never thought I would end up single. It all started with a psychic reading. It confirmed to me exactly how I felt. Sometimes you need something like that in life to wake you up!

It was something that was waiting to happen – “crying out” if you like. I had become so tired and drained within the relationship. I had passion running through my veins day in and day out but I just couldn’t express it to my partner at the time.

Why?

Because I was kidding myself. He wasn’t the one for me. And I felt that it was one of those moments in life where it was either now or never. I had pushed it to the back of my head for so long , but after I had done it, I truly felt a weight lifted from my shoulders.

Within all honesty – we were just two very different people. I was always wanting to do more with my life and I was never going to be able to do that all the time he was in it.

I do feel that I was holding him back as well.

I have had to adjust to a completely new lifestyle where I CAN do things by myself. Like drive to places alone, pay my own bills etc. I was way too reliant on him and that is no good for anyone.

Since I split up with him the real me is breaking free and I feel as if I am on a new spiritual journey with a brand new mindset.

Of course there are downers.

No money
Still live with parents
No one to whinge at
Sexually frustrated (but I am waiting until I find the right guy)

That’s it really. I don’t regret the relationship at all. I feel we helped each other out a lot.

But now I have a deeper understanding of what I really want from my next relationship.

I have discovered that life is a bit of a spring clean sometimes. You have to go through hard times to appreciate who you are and what exactly it is you want – even if things do seem unfair – there is always a reason.